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Thursday, 06 August 2009

HI!

Well I haven't been on in awhile and I've had a few drinks and I was bored so I thought I would come back for a little bit. The guy that I have been dating for seven months is no longer. We grew apart so we decided to break it up. I was kind of sad and didn't know what to do with myself afterwords. Now that I look back on it I think it was for the best. He was too reserved if that makes sense. Don't get me wrong I loved his family and we are still friends believe or not but I'm glad. Hopefully one day he'll find someone perfect for him. Maybe I can find someone in my field of study that I can be with. That was a major concern that I had was that I would be gone a lot because I was thinking of being an archaeologist/ anthropologist. I was afraid he might be lonely, so I think everything worked out well, and as my co-worker says there's plenty of men in the sea!! Talk to you guys later. I appreciate comments Thanks.
CD

Saturday, 13 June 2009

Woohoo

Well it's been awhile. The guy I was talking about is GREAT!!!! We've been dating for and a half months. First for Valentine's Day he was so awesome, he made dinner but it was such a surprise! He told me to dress nice as if we were going out to eat but them he said he left something at home. I told him ok lets go. We got to his house and he said to come in and I did. When I walked into his dining room there was candles on the table and he made dinner for me it was amazing! I was so surprised, i was speechless. He's absolutely stunning. Furthermore, he invited me to his cousins wedding in july a few months ago i wasn't sure if it was a good idea because I didn't want to assume something and then it not actually happen so I put off answering him and he was very patiant about it. Well I told him I would go! I'm really excited!! My friend helped me pick out a dress even though I would rather wear pants but he and my friend both said only a dress. Tonight we were talking the married couple and the subject was brought up and he said I would look hot in a dress. I'm stunned how could I lokk good in anything?! I have extra baggage if that hadn't been gathered before but I have lost some weight mostly because of medical reasons (not anirexia, hips if that sounds ok. One is higher than the other). Anyway, I'm really excited and I hadn't expected to stay with him this long! I figured I would annoy him too much or something. Anywho I can' wait!!! YAY! By the way it's in Michigan and I live in Ohio so I'm taking a camara! :)

Thursday, 12 February 2009

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I'm losing my mind! My mother is treating me as if I've gotten a DUI (haven't). Well I hit that deer and now this weekend I'm sad to say I won't be able to see my boyfriend, which me feel worse because he replaned saturday because I have to work till nine and now I won't be able to go at all. She questioned me about a guy I know and accused me of having sex with him. I haven't but that doesn't matter to her. I sent a message to my friends the ones that got married in november that she thinks I'm a slut, dumbass, and that "Micheal" deserved better. They were a little outraged to say the least. saying that she was jealous. I just think she hates me to be honest. Its not like i magically made the deer jump out in front of my car. I'm so frustrated she doesn't seem happy unless I'm chained to the house. maybe I'll just get more hours at work that way i'm not home so often. I just feel horrible for "Micheal" I don't want to break up with him but if this stuff about me not being able to see him might cause it in itself. I knew I got too comfortable too fast. I should have been the cautious person I always am. Well I'm going to find some asprin my head and stomach hurt though I'm not sure what the asprin can do for a painful stomach. BYE

Friday, 06 February 2009

GAR

Well if you read my last thread thingy you know about the guy from my friends wedding. Well we did go on a few dates and he decided to ask me to be his girlfriend. I was shocked. I said "Yea I guess" I don't think that was what he expected to hear but like I said I was shocked. Anyway, I find myself more comfortable with him than I thought I would be. I have this thing where I try not to get close to anybody or anything because they leave or we move and throw things away, but the reason I bring this up is because he lives about 40 mins away and well...... I hit a deer leaving his house last night. Poor thing. The worst part is before I left his house and said goodbye I told him that I'm going to go and hit a deer now. He played along saying venison is pretty good. So when I called him to say that I hit a deer he wasn't exactly pleased. Don't blame him. I shouldn't have said that what did the deer do? I'm so stupid. GAAAH! Well today mom was yelling at me about the car and how I shouldn't have been out. Well she didn't think that He had asked me out and I was kind of mad. Let's say his name is micheal. Micheal is traditional and a gentle man. I like him so when mom was saying that he should have to pay for some of the damage I was saying that I had free will that I didn't have to go out with him and his friend for dinner but I wanted to. She continued to beratte me about it. I was tempted to say than I'll just break it off but I couldn't even bring myself to say it. This goes back the attachment thing. I've gotten close to him and couldn't voice that breaking it off thing. To be honest he's the first real boyfriend that I've had so blah. He keeps checking in on me I think it's sweet but I don't know what I'm going to do. I'll leave off on that note.

Thursday, 27 November 2008

Oh Boy

So I'm sad to say i've been utterly busy since school started. Seriously look how long it's been since I've been on. Well a lot has gone on. Were to start? Well Steph and Rob's wedding was okay it didn't seem real for some reason. I mean it was great and everything, I don't know. They had a friend they were trying to hook me up with. I was maid of honor nad he the best man. I told myself and them i didn't want to hook up with anybody becuase the way my career may be but they said we made a cute couple and I made faces at them. Though it seems we've been on a few "dates" thats what people consider them. What do you say? First I told him that Ididn't like coffee and he said that everyone loves coffee they just have to find the right one. So he took me to this place that I've never heard of and we had some lattees ?? Then we went bowling as well as dinner and he paid for it all and I argued with him on that and I told him he would find money in his car one day. Then he asks me to go ice skating last saturday and he looked up the time but they closed the time I got off work so we decided to go lazer tagging and invited the newly married and he paid for that which I argued again my friend steph said to pay for dinner and call it even. I reluctently agreed and when we went to dinner he paid for it again I tried to get the bill away from him and he put it n his pocket and said get it now, I'm sorry I know him but not that well. Finally, he called me tuesday and asked if I wanted to go to this beatles thing with him. I said yes. i had asked him if he was sure and he said am I sure that I want to spend my time with you, yes. I was so surprised I didn't respond and he asked if I was still there? I'm so confusedor rather dissoriented as to what to think. Well I know my last one was a rant #1 but I honestly forgot what the second was about. Well I better stop before I overload everything. i have so much more that i want to say.